wú lùn guò qù nà ge zì jǐ jiū jìng shì rú hé qiáng dà , zài tā jué dìng zuò chū “ gǎi biàn ” de nà yī tiān , tā jiù yǐ jīng cóng cún zài gài niàn shàng xiāo shī le 。
无论过去那个自己究竟是如何强大,在他决定做出“改变”的那一天,他就已经从存在概念上消失了。
No matter how powerful the past self was, once he decided to make a "change," he had already vanished from existence.
xiàn rú jīn hái zhēn nèi fēng cún de , bìng bú shì zhēn zhèng de yì shí 。
现如今还真内封存的,并不是真正的意识。
Currently, what was sealed within Truly Real was not true consciousness. Instead, it was based on an immense amount of memory data—experience.
ér shì jiàn lì zài wú bǐ páng dà jì yì shù jù shàng de “ jīng yàn ”。
而是建立在无比庞大记忆数据上的“经验”。
The owner of these memories originally belonged to Li Fan. Thus, upon initial contact, they flowed uncontrollably into his mind. However, because the past Li Fan had grown to an unimaginable degree, even with his existence fading away, his long-lasting memories could still react like true intentions towards various situations in the external world.
zhè xiē jì yì de zhǔ rén , běn jiù shǔ yú lǐ fán 。
这些记忆的主人,本就属于李凡。
When faced with suitable and important paths, he would feel hungry and consume them. When encountering致命 crises, he would warn him. Even when meeting old friends from past battles, he would greet them.
gù ér zài kāi shǐ jiē chù zhī hòu , biàn wú kě zǔ dǎng de , cháo zhe lǐ fán nǎo hǎi nèi huì jù 。
故而在开始接触之后,便无可阻挡的,朝着李凡脑海内汇聚。
But ultimately, he no longer existed; only instinctive reactions based on his vast memories remained.
dàn yě zhèng yīn wèi guò qù zhī lǐ fán yǐ jīng qiáng dà dào bù kě sī yì zhī jìng , jí biàn cún zài xiāo wáng 、 nà lún huí wú chǔ cì shān hǎi shòu mìng de màn cháng jì yì , yě néng rú zhēn shí yì niàn bān , duì wài jiè gè zhǒng qíng kuàng zuò chū fǎn yìng 。
但也正因为过去之李凡已经强大到不可思议之境,即便存在消亡、那轮回无处次山海寿命的漫长记忆,也能如真实意念般,对外界各种情况做出反应。
Thus, upon realizing that his current strength was not yet sufficient to fully accept the past experiences, he decisively cut off contact.
yù jiàn hé shì zhòng yào dào tú , huì jī è 、 tūn shì 。
遇见合适重要道途,会饥饿、吞噬。
Li Fan returned to reality. "Friend Daoist Fan, do you feel any unusual sensations? Why does it seem like your mind is agitated?"
yù jiàn zhì mìng wēi jī , huì tí xǐng 。
遇见致命危机,会提醒。
"What happened?"
shèn zhì yù jiàn céng jīng bìng jiān zuò zhàn de gù yǒu , yě huì chū lái dǎ shēng zhāo hū 。
甚至遇见曾经并肩作战的故友,也会出来打声招呼。
Almost instantly, Li Fan received warm greetings from Shouchou Gong and Dao De.
dàn tā zhōng jiū shì yǐ jīng bù cún zài le 。
但他终究是已经不存在了。
Only then did he realize that even under the influence of the Xuanji Ring's 'harmonious minds,' no one had noticed his meeting with his past self.
jiù zhǐ shèng xià le jī yú zì shēn páng dà jì yì de běn néng fǎn yìng 。
就只剩下了基于自身庞大记忆的本能反应。
"Clearly indicating that my former strength far surpassed the Three Sages. Even with just a stack of memories, I can ignore the Xuanji Ring's harmony rules."
gù ér dāng fā xiàn mù qián shí lì de lǐ fán , hái bù zú yǐ quán pán jiē shòu guò qù zì jǐ de jīng lì shí , biàn guǒ duàn jiāng lián xì duàn kāi 。
故而当发现目前实力的李凡,还不足以全盘接受过去自己的经历时,便果断将联系断开。
Li Fan wasn't particularly surprised by this. After all, even if the Three Sages were at their peak, they still only practiced within the Sea and Mountains. Li Fan had countless cycles of rebirths.
yú shì lǐ fán chóng fǎn xiàn shí zhī zhōng 。
于是李凡重返现实之中。
"Though we share harmonious minds, I can now selectively block certain memories on my own."
“ fán dào yǒu kě yǒu yì yàng ? zěn me yǐn yǐn gǎn jué nǐ xīn shén bù níng ?”
“凡道友可有异样?怎么隐隐感觉你心神不宁?”
"I can deceive others but not myself. Isn't that naturally advantageous?"
“ fā shēng le hé shì ?”
“发生了何事?”
In an instant, Li Fan's eyes narrowed as he thought about this.
jī hū shì shùn jiān , lǐ fán xīn zhōng biàn chuán lái le shǒu qiū gōng gēn dào dé de qīn qiè wèn hòu 。
几乎是瞬间,李凡心中便传来了守丘公跟道德的亲切问候。
"But in this situation, there’s no need to hide from Shouchou Gong and Dao De."
zhè shí hòu lǐ fán fāng cái è rán fā xiàn , jí biàn chù zài xuán jī huán “ tóng xīn tóng dé ” de zuò yòng yǐng xiǎng zhī xià , tā gēn guò qù zì jǐ jì yì huì miàn zhī shì , yī rán méi yǒu bèi páng rén chá jué 。
这时候李凡方才愕然发现,即便处在璇玑环“同心同德”的作用影响之下,他跟过去自己记忆会面之事,依然没有被旁人察觉。
After a moment of contemplation, Li Fan decided to share his recent experiences with them.
“ yǐ rán shuō míng , céng jīng lǐ fán shí lì , yuǎn zài sān shèng zhī shàng 。 jí biàn zhǐ shèng xià le dān chún de jì yì duī dié , yě néng wú shì xuán jī huán tóng xīn guī zé 。”
“已然说明,曾经李凡实力,远在三圣之上。即便只剩下了单纯的记忆堆叠,也能无视璇玑环同心规则。”
Soon after...
duì cǐ lǐ fán yě bù zěn me yì wài 。
对此李凡也不怎么意外。
Shouchou Gong exclaimed, "I originally thought that carrying Truly Real and repeatedly coming back was already extraordinary. But I never expected a more convoluted past."
bì jìng sān shèng zài zěn me qiáng , nǎ pà shì shān hǎi shàng wèi duàn kāi shí hòu de diān fēng zhuàng tài , yě zhǐ shì zài shān hǎi zhī zhōng xiū xíng 。 ér lǐ fán , kě shì yǒu wú shù cì shān hǎi lún huí de jī lěi 。
毕竟三圣再怎么强,哪怕是山海尚未断开时候的巅峰状态,也只是在山海之中修行。而李凡,可是有无数次山海轮回的积累。
"The Sea and Mountains have been destroyed countless times before."
“ shuō shì tóng xīn tóng dé , dàn wǒ rú jīn què kě dān fāng miàn píng bì mǒu xiē jì yì 。”
“说是同心同德,但我如今却可单方面屏蔽某些记忆。”
"Having you here is truly a blessing for the Sea and Mountains!"
“ wǒ kě qī rén , rén bù kě qī wǒ 。 qǐ bù shì tiān rán zhàn jù yōu shì ?”
“我可欺人,人不可欺我。岂不是天然占据优势?”
Dao De was equally stunned: "To be able to share harmonious minds with Friend Daoist Fan, we would die content."
zhǐ shùn jiān , lǐ fán jiù yǎn jīng wēi mī , xiǎng dào le zhè yì diǎn 。
只瞬间,李凡就眼睛微眯,想到了这一点。
Li Fan hummed, "I don't think it's that great. If he really succeeded in saving the Sea and Mountains, there would be no end to the praise. But every time ending in failure—what’s the difference between repeating this countless times versus once?"
“ bù guò xiàn zài zhè zhǒng qíng kuàng , miàn duì shǒu qiū gēn dào dé , dǎo shì méi shén me yǐn mán de bì yào 。”
“不过现在这种情况,面对守丘跟道德,倒是没什么隐瞒的必要。”
Shouchou Gong and Dao De exchanged glances, unsure how to respond.
lüè wēi sī cǔn le piàn kè , lǐ fán hái shì jué dìng gēn tā men gòng xiǎng gāng cái de nà duàn jīng lì 。
略微思忖了片刻,李凡还是决定跟他们共享刚才的那段经历。
"Alright, let's not dwell on the past for now. I really need your help with something."
piàn kè zhī hòu ……
片刻之后……
"I have a few doubts that remain unresolved."
shǒu qiū jīng tàn dào :“ yuán běn yǐ wéi , fán dào yǒu shēn xié hái zhēn 、 shù cì zhòng lái yǐ jīng zú gòu lí qí le 。 què bù céng xiǎng dào hái yǒu gèng wéi qū zhé de guò qù 。”
守丘惊叹道:“原本以为,凡道友身携还真、数次重来已经足够离奇了。却不曾想到还有更为曲折的过去。”
"The first is that even though I'm certain, I still hesitate. Was my past self truly gone? Or was it some thought imposed upon me? Could there be any hidden tricks left in me, waiting to strike when I finally succeed?"
“ yuán lái shān hǎi , zǎo jiù yǐ jīng bù zhī dào huǐ miè guò jǐ lún 。”
“原来山海,早就已经不知道毁灭过几轮。”
"The second question concerns the origin of my keen intuition. I've finally found an answer, but the source of infinite spirituality remains unknown. I can only sense that my past self wasn't uncertain about this matter and didn’t try to explain it to me. Is infinite spirituality truly endless? Or is it a result of countless cycles of rebirth?"
“ yǒu fán dào yǒu zài , dàng zhēn shì shān hǎi zhī xìng !”
“有凡道友在,当真是山海之幸!”
"And as for the third point—saving the world first saves oneself, what does that mean exactly?"
dào dé yě yī shí zhèn hàn nán yán :“ néng yǔ fán dào yǒu tóng xīn tóng dé , wú děng sǐ ér wú hàn le 。”
道德也一时震撼难言:“能与凡道友同心同德,吾等死而无憾了。”
Li Fan spoke openly and honestly, laying out all his doubts without reservation.
lǐ fán hēng le hēng :“ wǒ dǎo shì jué de bù zěn me yàng 。 ruò shì tā zhēn de chéng gōng zhěng jiù shān hǎi le , zì rán rú hé kuā yào yě bù wèi guò 。 dàn měi měi dōu yǐ shī bài gào zhōng , chóng fù wú shù cì gēn chóng fù yī cì , yòu yǒu shén me qū bié ?”
李凡哼了哼:“我倒是觉得不怎么样。若是他真的成功拯救山海了,自然如何夸耀也不为过。但每每都以失败告终,重复无数次跟重复一次,又有什么区别?”
This was him. Even if he were his past self, even if the other party appeared great, noble, and sacred, he would still not easily trust them. He would always question things when necessary.
shǒu qiū gēn dào dé wén yán kǔ xiào , yī shí jìng bù zhī dào gāi rú hé huí dá 。
守丘跟道德闻言苦笑,一时竟不知道该如何回答。
Under the 'harmonious minds' rule, Shouchou Gong and Dao De already knew Li Fan's character and weren't surprised. They began to think seriously about his questions.
“ hǎo le , zàn qiě bù lùn guò qù 。 wǒ xiàn zài , zhe shí xū yào nǐ men bāng máng pàn duàn xià 。”
“好了,暂且不论过去。我现在,着实需要你们帮忙判断下。”
After a long while, Shouchou Gong slowly said, "Regarding the first point, my judgment aligns with Dao De. Your past self should indeed no longer exist."
“ yǒu jǐ gè yí wèn , shàng cún xīn zhōng 。”
“有几个疑问,尚存心中。”
"By exhausting all possibilities and finding no way out, one must take a desperate gamble—slashing the old self and creating a new life. It's as if re-creating the heavens and earth. This is seeking possibility in impossibility. If there were any hidden tricks..."
“ dì yī , jí biàn yǐ jīng wàn fēn què dìng , wǒ réng rán yǒu suǒ yóu yí 。 guò qù zhī wǒ , shì fǒu zhēn de shì yǐ jīng shì qù le ? hái shì tā qiáng jiā gěi wǒ de mǒu zhǒng sī xiǎng rèn dìng ? huì bú huì , réng rán zài wǒ shēn shàng liú yǒu shén me hòu shǒu ? děng wǒ zhēn chéng gōng zhěng jiù shān hǎi zhī hòu , zài chū shǒu fǎn zhì ?”
“第一,即便已经万分确定,我仍然有所犹疑。过去之我,是否真的是已经逝去了?还是他强加给我的某种思想认定?会不会,仍然在我身上留有什么后手?等我真成功拯救山海之后,再出手反制?”
"...leading to failure at critical moments, rendering past efforts futile. Wouldn't that be all for naught? Given your past self’s thoughtfulness and character, he wouldn’t make such meaningless actions."
“ dì èr , wǒ zhī líng mǐn zhí jué lái yuán zhè ge wèn tí , zhōng yú dé dào le dá àn 。 dàn wú xiàn líng xìng jiū jìng cóng hé ér lái , què réng wèi zhī 。 zhǐ shì yǐn yǐn gǎn jué dào , céng jīng zhī wǒ bìng bù yí huò cǐ shì 。 gù ér yě méi yǒu xiàng wǒ jiě huò 。 wú xiàn zhī líng xìng , shì fǒu dàng zhēn wú xiàn 。 hái shì céng jīng zhī wǒ wú shù cì lún huí xià lái de jī lěi ?”
“第二,我之灵敏直觉来源这个问题,终于得到了答案。但无限灵性究竟从何而来,却仍未知。只是隐隐感觉到,曾经之我并不疑惑此事。故而也没有向我解惑。无限之灵性,是否当真无限。还是曾经之我无数次轮回下来的积累?”
Li Fan nodded slightly.
“ zhì yú dì sān diǎn ma ? jiù shì xiān jiù jǐ , zhè wǔ zì jiū jìng zuò hé jiě ?”
“至于第三点嘛?救世先救己,这五字究竟作何解?”
Of course, he wasn't entirely convinced by Shouchou Gong's words. Even if he himself doubted it, how could Shouchou Gong not be influenced?
lǐ fán yáng yáng sǎ sǎ , yì kǒu qì jiāng xīn zhōng yí huò quán dōu shuō chū 。
李凡洋洋洒洒,一口气将心中疑惑全都说出。
But for now, it was just a comfort.
guāng míng lěi luò , háo wú yì sè 。
光明磊落,毫无异色。
Shouchou Gong understood this and quickly moved on to Li Fan’s second question: "Regarding the origin of infinite spirituality, I have two guesses."
zhè jiù shì tā , jí biàn shì céng jīng zhī zì jǐ 、 jí biàn duì fāng míng miàn shàng biǎo xiàn de rú hé wěi dà 、 gāo shàng 、 shén shèng 。 tā yě zhōng jiū bú huì qīng xìn yú rén 。 gāi huái yí de , zǒng guī yào huái yí de 。
这就是他,即便是曾经之自己、即便对方明面上表现的如何伟大、高尚、神圣。他也终究不会轻信于人。该怀疑的,总归要怀疑的。
"The first is that it's an inherent trait brought by your journey. This characteristic allowed your past self to achieve such admirable experiences. Otherwise, merely being a spirit born within the Sea and Mountains, trying to escape its cycle... even the Three Sages might struggle."
tóng xīn tóng dé guī zé lǒng zhào xià , shǒu qiū gōng gēn dào dé zǎo zhī lǐ fán wéi rén 。
同心同德规则笼罩下,守丘公跟道德早知李凡为人。
"As for my second guess, it stems from what you said about your past self having no doubts about the origin of infinite spirituality. If it were due to the journey, he would not understand the reason. Unless, he knows some memories that you don’t, witnessing the source of infinite spirituality during his journey. Given his character, such an important matter wouldn't be hidden from him. Since he didn't say anything, we can assume it's not there. Thus, we must infer that infinite spirituality might come from countless cycles of rebirth."
yě méi yǒu jīng yì , ér shì rèn zhēn sī kǎo qǐ lái 。
也没有惊异,而是认真思考起来。
Shouchou Gong seemed to see Li Fan repeatedly saving the Sea and Mountains, only for everything to fail, before starting anew.
xǔ jiǔ zhī hòu , shǒu qiū gōng huǎn huǎn kāi kǒu :“ guān yú dì yì diǎn , wǒ de pàn duàn gēn dào dé bǎo chí yí zhì 。 guò qù de fán dào yǒu , yīng gāi dí què bù cún zài le 。”
许久之后,守丘公缓缓开口:“关于第一点,我的判断跟道德保持一致。过去的凡道友,应该的确不存在了。”
He looked with admiration and a sense of longing.
“ qióng jìn suǒ yǒu , jiē zhǎo bú dào chū lù 。 zhǐ yǒu gū zhù yí zhì , zhǎn gù wǒ 、 chuàng xīn shēng 。 wǎn ruò chóng xīn kāi tiān pì dì , rú cǐ fāng yǒu yī sī miǎo máng kě néng 。 cǐ jǔ nǎi shì yú bù kě néng zhōng xún qiú kě néng 。 ruò shì réng yǒu suǒ wèi àn shǒu liú xià ……”
“穷尽所有,皆找不到出路。只有孤注一掷,斩故我、创新生。宛若重新开天辟地,如此方有一丝渺茫可能。此举乃是于不可能中寻求可能。若是仍有所谓暗手留下……”
"It’s not just his own accumulation but also possibly the entire Sea and Mountains," Dao De added.
“ zhì shǐ guān jiàn shí kè gōng kuī yī kuì , guò wǎng nǔ lì jiē jǐn bái fèi 。 qǐ bù shì bái máng yī cháng ? yǐ guò qù fán dào yǒu zhī sī liáng 、 xīn xìng , duàn bú huì zuò chū rú cǐ wú yì yì jǔ dòng 。”
“致使关键时刻功亏一篑,过往努力皆尽白费。岂不是白忙一场?以过去凡道友之思量、心性,断不会做出如此无意义举动。”
"Oh? How so?" Li Fan asked.
lǐ fán wēi wēi diǎn tóu 。
李凡微微点头。
"When the Sea and Mountains were destroyed, true spirits accumulated. The Sea and Mountains rose from true and false paths in the void. The nature of these accumulated spirits remains unknown. If they return to a new Sea and Mountains, this guess doesn’t hold. But if the Sea and Mountains reappear without relying on past spirits..."
dāng rán , yě bú shì quán rán xìn le shǒu qiū zhī yán 。 jiù lián zì jǐ dōu huái yí , yòu hé kuàng shǒu qiū hū ? tā néng shòu dào guò qù zhī wǒ yǐng xiǎng , tóng xīn tóng dé de shǒu qiū jiù bù néng le ?
当然,也不是全然信了守丘之言。就连自己都怀疑,又何况守丘乎?他能受到过去之我影响,同心同德的守丘就不能了?
"...then it could explain where your infinite true spirit comes from."
zhǐ bù guò zàn qiě xiān xún gè ān wèi bà le 。
只不过暂且先寻个安慰罢了。
"It’s remnants left behind during each cycle," Dao De said slowly.
No matter how powerful the past self was, once he decided to make a "change," he had already vanished from existence.
Currently, what was sealed within Truly Real was not true consciousness. Instead, it was based on an immense amount of memory data—experience.
The owner of these memories originally belonged to Li Fan. Thus, upon initial contact, they flowed uncontrollably into his mind. However, because the past Li Fan had grown to an unimaginable degree, even with his existence fading away, his long-lasting memories could still react like true intentions towards various situations in the external world.
When faced with suitable and important paths, he would feel hungry and consume them. When encountering致命 crises, he would warn him. Even when meeting old friends from past battles, he would greet them.
But ultimately, he no longer existed; only instinctive reactions based on his vast memories remained.
Thus, upon realizing that his current strength was not yet sufficient to fully accept the past experiences, he decisively cut off contact.
Li Fan returned to reality. "Friend Daoist Fan, do you feel any unusual sensations? Why does it seem like your mind is agitated?"
"What happened?"
Almost instantly, Li Fan received warm greetings from Shouchou Gong and Dao De.
Only then did he realize that even under the influence of the Xuanji Ring's 'harmonious minds,' no one had noticed his meeting with his past self.
"Clearly indicating that my former strength far surpassed the Three Sages. Even with just a stack of memories, I can ignore the Xuanji Ring's harmony rules."
Li Fan wasn't particularly surprised by this. After all, even if the Three Sages were at their peak, they still only practiced within the Sea and Mountains. Li Fan had countless cycles of rebirths.
"Though we share harmonious minds, I can now selectively block certain memories on my own."
"I can deceive others but not myself. Isn't that naturally advantageous?"
In an instant, Li Fan's eyes narrowed as he thought about this.
"But in this situation, there’s no need to hide from Shouchou Gong and Dao De."
After a moment of contemplation, Li Fan decided to share his recent experiences with them.
Soon after...
Shouchou Gong exclaimed, "I originally thought that carrying Truly Real and repeatedly coming back was already extraordinary. But I never expected a more convoluted past."
"The Sea and Mountains have been destroyed countless times before."
"Having you here is truly a blessing for the Sea and Mountains!"
Dao De was equally stunned: "To be able to share harmonious minds with Friend Daoist Fan, we would die content."
Li Fan hummed, "I don't think it's that great. If he really succeeded in saving the Sea and Mountains, there would be no end to the praise. But every time ending in failure—what’s the difference between repeating this countless times versus once?"
Shouchou Gong and Dao De exchanged glances, unsure how to respond.
"Alright, let's not dwell on the past for now. I really need your help with something."
"I have a few doubts that remain unresolved."
"The first is that even though I'm certain, I still hesitate. Was my past self truly gone? Or was it some thought imposed upon me? Could there be any hidden tricks left in me, waiting to strike when I finally succeed?"
"The second question concerns the origin of my keen intuition. I've finally found an answer, but the source of infinite spirituality remains unknown. I can only sense that my past self wasn't uncertain about this matter and didn’t try to explain it to me. Is infinite spirituality truly endless? Or is it a result of countless cycles of rebirth?"
"And as for the third point—saving the world first saves oneself, what does that mean exactly?"
Li Fan spoke openly and honestly, laying out all his doubts without reservation.
This was him. Even if he were his past self, even if the other party appeared great, noble, and sacred, he would still not easily trust them. He would always question things when necessary.
Under the 'harmonious minds' rule, Shouchou Gong and Dao De already knew Li Fan's character and weren't surprised. They began to think seriously about his questions.
After a long while, Shouchou Gong slowly said, "Regarding the first point, my judgment aligns with Dao De. Your past self should indeed no longer exist."
"By exhausting all possibilities and finding no way out, one must take a desperate gamble—slashing the old self and creating a new life. It's as if re-creating the heavens and earth. This is seeking possibility in impossibility. If there were any hidden tricks..."
"...leading to failure at critical moments, rendering past efforts futile. Wouldn't that be all for naught? Given your past self’s thoughtfulness and character, he wouldn’t make such meaningless actions."
Li Fan nodded slightly.
Of course, he wasn't entirely convinced by Shouchou Gong's words. Even if he himself doubted it, how could Shouchou Gong not be influenced?
But for now, it was just a comfort.
Shouchou Gong understood this and quickly moved on to Li Fan’s second question: "Regarding the origin of infinite spirituality, I have two guesses."
"The first is that it's an inherent trait brought by your journey. This characteristic allowed your past self to achieve such admirable experiences. Otherwise, merely being a spirit born within the Sea and Mountains, trying to escape its cycle... even the Three Sages might struggle."
"As for my second guess, it stems from what you said about your past self having no doubts about the origin of infinite spirituality. If it were due to the journey, he would not understand the reason. Unless, he knows some memories that you don’t, witnessing the source of infinite spirituality during his journey. Given his character, such an important matter wouldn't be hidden from him. Since he didn't say anything, we can assume it's not there. Thus, we must infer that infinite spirituality might come from countless cycles of rebirth."
Shouchou Gong seemed to see Li Fan repeatedly saving the Sea and Mountains, only for everything to fail, before starting anew.
He looked with admiration and a sense of longing.
"It’s not just his own accumulation but also possibly the entire Sea and Mountains," Dao De added.
"Oh? How so?" Li Fan asked.
"When the Sea and Mountains were destroyed, true spirits accumulated. The Sea and Mountains rose from true and false paths in the void. The nature of these accumulated spirits remains unknown. If they return to a new Sea and Mountains, this guess doesn’t hold. But if the Sea and Mountains reappear without relying on past spirits..."
"...then it could explain where your infinite true spirit comes from."
"It’s remnants left behind during each cycle," Dao De said slowly.